SOMETHING I DON’T KNOW
As crazy as it may sound, soon, it will become an insane reality.
Few more days until I will be part of something I don’t know. Something thrilled and terrified in the same time. But, I really desire to change my whole perspective, because I have the feeling of being ready to eventually receive the unknown in my life and let that change me… whatever that’s supposed to mean.
Having a daily routine is fine when you want to sit with the inner child, to keep the anxiety at a low level, but what about the growing part? What about the part where you rediscover yourself, the part where you give yourself the freedom to try and make mistakes? What about the part you know nothing about?
That part may be scary as hell. The part where you let yourself be whatever you want is definitely bloodcurdling. That part, and many others that may come and will come, can prove to be a turning point in your life. How about that?
How about letting the old you go and embrace the not yet created version of yourself? The version that waits to be discovered and wants to bring itself to life?
I have seen this opportunity and take it without any remorse. I am picturing my life two weeks from now, alone, in a very bizarre country with so many unknown people doing something I have never done in my entire life… neither more nor less than chill down my spine. It is like I push the stop button from my ordinarily life, or maybe is just a pause one. Like a song you are not sure about liking it or not.
Am I pushing the stop or the pause button? Half a year that may change everything or nothing at all.
I am not afraid of entering in this mysterious period of time, don’t get me wrong. I am scared I will not be able to see all the opportunities that this trip has to offer me, terrified of not taking all the risks that may appear, nervous not being curious enough, panic-stricken that all of it will be just a waste of time and frightened not enjoying the whole adventure and the process of getting bold.
Sweetheart, let’s make some worth telling stories!
